For so long I could not see that my stubborn resistance to God was the cause of my pain and emptiness.  I could not hear His voice over the  thunder of abuse and sinfulness.

The irony of believing I was controlling my life was that it was totally out-of -control!  When I became tired of the  lies and weary from the pain, I found myself at the foot of the cross.  There I learned the meaning of surrender based on love, and the gentle hand  of God began healing my brokenness. 

I realized surrender didn’t mean giving in to the bullies in my life. It didn’t give someone else the upper hand or add to the shame I already  labored under. What I found instead was: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23). I hope you enjoy this journey with me and I invite any thoughts you may like to share.

Also, the dates of the posts might just cause some serious head-scratching. I can explain. I recently changed Host Servers and since I am pathetically and irreparably challenged technically all my posts were lost – gone – obliterated. That meant that I had to reconstruct them, but I could not back date them. I also didn’t want to lose them, as writing for me can be painfully tedious. I only have so much wit and wisdom to go around. So, to save my sanity I just posted them and left it at that. Okay? Good.