For so long I could not see that my stubborn resistance to God was the cause of my pain and emptiness. I could not hear His voice over the thunder of abuse and sinfulness.
The irony of believing I was controlling my life was that it was totally out-of-control! When I became tired of the lies and weary from the pain I found myself at the foot of the cross. There I learned the meaning of surrender based on love and the gentle hand of God began healing my brokenness.
I realized surrender didn’t mean giving in to the bullies in my life. It didn’t give someone else the upper hand or add to the shame I already labored under. What I found instead was: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23). I hope you enjoy this journey with me and I invite any thoughts you may like to share.
Also, the dates of the posts might just cause some serious head-scratching. I can explain. I recently changed Host Servers and since I am pathetically and irreparably challenged technically all my posts were lost – gone – obliterated. That meant that I had to reconstruct them, but I could not back date them. I also didn’t want to lose them, as writing for me can be painfully tedious. I only have so much wit and wisdom to go around. So, to save my sanity I just posted them and left it at that. Okay? Good.
May the Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you; the Lord lift up His countenance upon you, and give you peace. (Numbers 6:24-26)
