Ok, here I am twenty years after the first crappy edition of my book. What a journey of dealing with my insecurities as I rewrote it in 2011 and then hid it in the back of a closet!
Recently, I completed a four-day writers workshop with Hay House Publishing, without realizing what was about to happen. During this time I have felt God’s “nudge” more powerfully that ever before to submit it for publishing. For the first time in all these years, I have the confidence to do it. So, I am cleaning it up to submit it.
I’m also changing the title because I believe (and that belief has been confirmed by others) that it doesn’t reflect the content. Stay tuned.
Now, I’m giving you the opportunity to still receive that free copy if you contact me @ ruslk1982@protonmail.com. But, if you wait and I finally get that phone call from Oprah – the deals off! Hahahahaha – I crack myself up!
I will leave the following information about my book here and offer it at no cost if you are interested. God bless!
SURRENDER? WHO ME?
Excerpts from Why Surrender is NOT a Four-Letter Word:
Because I withdrew more and more I took on a sense of feeling invisible. The longing I had to be recognized was fertile soil for the festering anger that was growing inside of me. As I grew older and knew I was no longer under the “control” of someone bigger than me, I gave myself the freedom to express that anger without fear of parental punishment. Each outburst revealed a child within screaming, “Pay attention to me!”
Do you have a friend who has just met the man of her dreams, and you are looking at that lump on the sofa, guzzling beer and belching show tunes, and wondering where you went wrong? Shame on you.
Are you wearing the outside garments of humility while your undergarments are bunched up because your neighbor just bought a new car? Your lacy envy is showing.
Though God is persistent, He does not force his way into our lives. But that tugging at our hearts? That’s Him. Standing in the doorway, peeking in the window, waving His hands wildly to get our attention—until we acknowledge Him. Then He rejoices!” And the adventure begins!
Surrender
I have a confession to make—I think. Perhaps it isn’t necessary, but I am not leaving anything to chance. I may or may not give the impression that I have successfully and completely transitioned from a struggling, out-of-control misfit to a living, breathing saint. If that is the impression that I have given even one person, shame on me. That said, while I definitely haven’t been canonized, I have gained new insights and a realization of how far God has brought me and just how far I have to go.
How Am I Doing So Far?
I hate when God says to me, “Woe to you, hypocrite!” So, with great trembling, I daily ask him to keep me in line and tell me when I am messing up – and he cheerfully obliges. Sometimes it’s not pretty. But that’s okay because my heart is gradually able to accept that he loves me, I mean, really loves me! I don’t have to play games with him, I don’t have to make excuses, and I don’t have to try to impress anyone. That creates the freedom that comes from knowing that I can do nothing to gain God’s love and – Hallelujah – nothing to lose it!
God’s richest blessings to you and those you love, those you don’t love so much, and those you have no opinion about whatsoever…because that’s how God rolls.
If you would like a copy of my book, which you won’t find anywhere outside my basement or a garage sale, just complete the contact form below, and I will be happy to send it to you at no cost. Just contact me at ruslk1982@protonmail.com and put “Book order request” in the subject line. Thank you!
PASSION, PURPOSE & POOPYHEADS 